Until a few months ago, I didn't believe in the idea of fate. I did believe in the idea that everything happens for a reason.......which by definition is fate. Yeah, I didn't really know that. Call me blonde. According to the dictionary, FATE is defined as:
That which is inevitably pre-determined; a prophetic declaration of what must be.
So with that in mind.....how do you figure out what your fate is? Do you dream it and wake up one day with a plan? Does someone come along and put an idea in your head and that steers you in a direction? Do you just go about your way without direction and figure that everything happens for a reason so this must be your fate? Do you find something you want, set your heart on and not let anything or anyone stop you and call that fate? Does anyone really know what is predetermined for our lives or do we just go from day to day and make decisions based on the events and go from there? I suppose one could put in an overpriced call to Sylvia Brown but I don't really buy into that whole idea.
Some people say you make your own destiny. So I guess that would be the part where you decide what you want and go for it, not letting anyone or anything stop you. In that case, my fate was to be a mother and I've accomplished that.
Now what?
If your mind tells you one thing and your heart tells you another, which one do you listen to? Some people listen to their mind and ignore their heart. Others, like myself, live for the heart and the life it provides and so I do what I can to keep it happy and I always listen to it. I can only think of one occasion where I wish I wouldn't have. Even with my marriage falling apart, I would do it all over again if I could because my kids are the most amazing individuals I've ever known and I wouldn't change a hair on their head. So for the record, no I don't regret my marriage at all. However, it taught me many lessons.
So if you make a decision and something makes you question it, then what? If you are equally torn between two people or places or things or dinners, which one do you go with? Will you ever wonder if you did the right thing? Or do you assume that once the decision has been made, thats it and you'll never question it or the consequences it may have? I would think that if I made a decision and afterwards, felt a strong nagging that maybe I was wrong, I'd really have to question if I made the right choice. If the feeling was strong enough to make me feel guilty or question my decision, then was it the right decision? Or am I taking fate into my own hands and changing my destiny to appease my wants? Is destiny what we WANT or what is supposed to happen? I guess that goes back to the theory some have that we create our own destiny. I don't believe in that but many do.
I would think that we always take that risk in everything that we do. I guess part of it comes down to asking yourself what your ultimate goal in life is. Is it riches, happiness, health, love or something else? If you could only choose ONE of those to have, which would it be?
I would choose love. I would rather be with my true love in a shack, in the poorest country in the world then in a mansion in the Hollywood Hills alone, or worse, with someone I didn't truely love. But I am just one person.
Argh. I am in a predicament and I will never know the real answer to all of these questions. I don't know that a choice can be ruled out if it hasn't been fully explored. If you don't give it your all because you fear that it may make you question choices that you've already made yourself, then how do you know it's right? That isn't fate in my book, that's taking things into your own hands.
However, it's not my life. I'm just a part of a much larger puzzle I suppose.
